Untouchable

A scanty village and the celestial paradise,

Both separated through just a bridge tonight.

Excited, we run across the lush green field holding hands,

It is on either edge of the bridge that we now stand.

The paths looks narrow and covered in twigs,

Sharp edges and strong words cutting our feet.

We walk through still, though the journey seems tough,

Only till the time I hadn’t gone ahead enough,

So much so that you almost lost the way,

Brewed a hate in your heart that’s now sending me away.

I just wish you had come forward a little,

To find me just as wounded and lost, but now you wouldn’t listen.

So anytime these days our eyes meet from a distance,

I see your gaze but pain slashes though my skin in this instant.

And I am nothing but helpless to wonder,

That even today, I believe I am sole person culpable,

But when was it that to you,  I become untouchable?

I don’t know where I stopped being a human for you,

Like I don’t know where you became inhuman.

Fallen leaves


You are the light of day and my season of spring,

Without you, life is just a field of fallen leaves.

Like our castles holding the shreds of broken dreams.

I have witnessed love shower eternal peace, and the ultimate anxiety,

So today you are the pit in my stomach and my racing heartbeat.

And while it seems I cannot save the damage a mind does,

What I know for sure, is that our memories shall outlive us.


For if you are the author, I am the book.

If you the mirror, I the look.

We live inseparable in the same space,

You can’t reach nights if I don’t close the day.

So consider this as my tribute to our love,

I raise a toast in thankfulness of thereof.

For you are my wish come true from a shooting star,

A short lived dream, but the best thus far.


Today I owe my happiness, my being to you.

Without you, this life will never hold a meaning true.

Imprints

Everybody we meet and everything we touch is by destiny. Then why does it happen that some experiences are so profound- that they shape us into who we are and become imprints?


Today my eyes open to the golden morning light,

With its softness, warming my heart as I turn sides.

Briefly glancing at the bedside picture, as I acknowledge wake of the day.

My anxiety taking over me that very moment, telling me it’s there to stay.

So I try and gather myself back up, taking steps every day.

But I know consciously that all my actions are to achieve a delay

Of acceptance, that you believe we will never be okay,

Of belief, that I can just not find a way.

And just as I reflect back, it seems

As if life moved forward while time stood still.

My steps are still trying to find a way,

To trace back the path, of your imprints.

Au revoir

For words are said and the verdict made,

For hardly my will can change the fate.

For my doings to us seem irreversible I am afraid,

I guess it’s about time that the price is paid.

This one thing though my rue doesn’t help,

Our innocent hearts are damaged beyond repair.

Little is the chance that we will let anyone touch it,

For that’s where lie protected our fondest memories.

Barring which, unsure I am if there is a life,

Because I know I had never felt so alive,

And for us to to now feel the power of love,

I guess it will be quite long a while.

So since goodbyes are hard, and I didn’t

Think we will break apart.

Must you know that you are engraved in my heart,

So I pull you close and softly whisper, au revoir.

I am glad

From a street full of clutter and noise that is deafening,

I scamper back to my room and latch myself in.

Leaning next to the window, I glare at the outside tree.

Only to realize – the chaos is me and my own debris.


Tomorrow if you make a trip to my mind,

I wonder how much of confusion you will find.

How I am running backwards to catch what’s no longer mine,

Consciously refusing to accept that you have left me behind.


And it is not as if I don’t know what is true,

Just that it is my life’s solace in reminiscing what is ‘you’.

Keeping your flame alight in my heart,

With each memory trip, burning myself a scar.


Maybe it is not the best thing that I do,

But I am glad that in this, I am not dragging you.

Although amid every wise advice, I only hear your voice,

But I am glad, that atleast you made the right choice.

Still in love

The sun to my day and the cool to my mind.

Without you, this world is dark and a place unkind.

For you are the breeze that makes my spirits fly,

Your absence for me means suffocation under wide open sky.

The food to my soul and light to my spirit,

Why shouldn’t I call you the reason of my being.

For without you, this world is an abyss dark,

And I seek solace from every memory, every scar.

That childlike smile, that innocent face,

The seamless ways in which you enter my mind space.

Yes, I am making many attempts to rise above,

But you can’t hate me while I’m still in love.

Far you are from me today, but tell me how I should separate

Your presence from my life, when you are the blood in my veins.

Amor de mi vida

The evening that I laid my eyes, 
On that red shirt with mere surprise.

I couldn’t get my head around how were so graceful, 
Recalling exactly how we got lost in our simple conversation.

So much so that we forgot to look outside,
And didn’t appreciate the beauty of that blessed night.
It was a meteor shower, 
With each grain carrying a blessing. 

And so I found you so close to me, 
Holding me gently under the next moon crescent.

Have I ever told you how it felt so fulfilled, 
To be wrapped in the warmth of your arms. 
To know that there’s nothing I want further, 
But to stay lost in the world of your charm. 

At that instant and in that moment, 
I found everything I could wish for. 
And we let ourselves flow in the wind of ardor, 
Intoxicated by the stars we saw in each others’ eyes.
Lost in the magic we created, 
Afraid each moment of it not lasting forever, 
Albeit faithful that even the universe
Could not destroy something so pure.
Looking back today, I feel that we lived a lifetime, 
In each second we spent together. 
And while we may find happiness,
We shall never feel complete. 

Slowly

 

Your mind’s conquest,

And our hearts’ eternal unrest

Go together, hand in hand. 

While the weight of my deeds,

Pushes me deep

Down under at our behest. 

 

And I lie at the rock bottom

Of this ocean called life, 

Almost as if my hands were tied,

Helpless as if buoyancy has tried.

To thrust me back up, 

But hard in my face our memories rub.

 

So I keep right there, making no effort to retreat.

Staying calm, like there’s nothing to achieve.

Slowly suffocating myself, slowly getting numb.

Building castles in air that one day you will come.

And if you don’t,

What good is life anyway.

 

Such is the power of our love

That it has both you and I,

Crying our hearts out in the middle of the night.

While our emptiness eats us from inside,

And we dream of what life could have been like.

 

Heartless lies

Tied in the entrenchments of a restless mind,

There’s blaring darkness hugging blinding light.

The world has become a pursuit of devotion,

Yet in this sham of a life,

All that resides are heartless lies.

 

I think of what we had, 

And it all seems so ethereal,

Always placed love above all,

Yet why is it today so trivial?

 

That you are fine with me giving up on my life, 

Striding forward on the way but killing your love inside? 

I thought I had given in all that it takes, 

But stupid I was to forget,

Love doesn’t provision for mistakes.

On the other side


One sunny day on the other side,

I will tell you all about this life.

How difficult at each step this world seemed,

And how unfair I think life has been.


How time and again I trashed an advise so wise,

How on days I didn’t want to open my eyes

Knowing what I would wake up to,

Fearing it wouldn’t be beside you.


How at some point, this life seemed so shallow, 

That to not be found, I got lost in the shadows.

How I dreamt and wished all the time,

Of nothing but to have us aligned.


How I endlessly waited for an afterlife,

Where peace will be the light.

It will be just you and I,

And I’ll tell you all about this life.