Do you also hear crickets at night?
Amid sincere efforts of catching sleep,
When loneliness hits with all its might.
It is then that I miss you the most,
It is then that I feel most shallow.
Loving you for your childlike innocence,
Hating myself for being naive and callow.
But when I spent my days in your arms,
It wasn’t like I needed you to fill my day,
We were letting you form and shape,
The person that I am, with love and faith.
I think of you and I can’t help
But stand still and feel trapped
In a mirage of love we both created,
Though our lifetime together doesn’t seem fated.
In these moments of agonizing pain,
I am fearless.
For I can’t imagine feeling any worse,
For the hurt cuts so much,
That it numbs my body and kills my heart,
Doesn’t let me feel and rips my soul apart.